Growing up

Raised with Christianity as a child, I attended church with my family every Sunday. The school they sent me to happened to be Seventh-day Adventist, so all of my classmates and teachers went to school on Saturdays. I remember the children at my school would explain to me how I was going to hell since I went to church on another day than them, because their day was the correct day for church. It seemed to me even from a young age that people loved following a set of dogmatic rules so they could receive a reward at the end of their life. This left me extremely confused as I went through adolescence questioning religion and what I thought "God" was. Because if God was Love, then surely it wouldn't matter what day anyone did anything! As days are completely arbitrary to reality. The whole premise of religion really crumbled after I was extremely depressed at age 19 when my boyfriend committed suicide. I realized at the time that religion couldn't save me from myself, and I felt so incredibly alone, so I gave up on it. After that I started to perceive energetic phenomena. A psychic medium reached out to me and confirmed a lot of what I had been experiencing. After that I was doing research and found a website talking about Buddhism and meditation, where I read a quote that forever changed my life, it was, "When the student is ready, the teacher will appear" this really struck my soul in a way that I had never experienced before, even though I didn't cognitively understand what that meant at the time. A few months later, because I had been modeling as it was my creative outlet to help express my depression, I moved to Los Angeles to sign with a modeling agency. During that shift was when someone reached out to me who I thought was a photographer, but they also taught meditation on the side. They invited me to sit down and meditate with them. From the very first instance of meditating and going in Samadhi, I was completely hooked. I have been meditating every single day since then. It's beyond all words and impossible for me to convey what spending time in the world of meditation has done for me on every level possible. It's not just something I do or something that I identify with, it's my whole world and reason for being here. I am so excited to be sharing everything I have learned with you now through my online courses and social media. Thank you for being here. ॐ